March 31, 2007: Slut

Originally posted on March 31, 2007, approximately 18 hours after the rape.  Reposted to this journal June 28, 2009.

This entry may be triggering. Names have been changed to protect both the innocent and myself.

What's wrong with me? I did it again. I drank so much, half my night is gone. I found out later I had sex with a boy who I am absolutely repulsed by. I'm not attracted to him, and I think he is a dirtbag. I'm sure I told him I didn't want to have sex. I didn't even want to kiss him. I sat down on the couch and all of a sudden we were making out and I feel so sick and disgusting and I don't know what to do with myself.
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